sound writing: the poem collection

 

so many words, verses, choruses and stories have been put into sound and music. however not every song i write is being performed with audience or produced properly. i often do not care too much about the chrods, the notes, the picking patterns or such while writing a song, as they usually all change or evolve with the years. some songs are written on the guitar, some on the piano, some in my head, some when i dream, some on a banjo, some within the nature’s sounds. some stories of the lyrics flow together within ten minutes, some other stories might take ten years.

here is an ongoing collection of lyrics and songs i have written since the early 2000’s. some of them have been produced and come with a link to the publication in the title. the following lyrics are arranged randomly and not by date or such.

the shadows start to shine

when i was a tiny child
the shadows ate me at nights
full alive with bones, blood and soul
and with my dreams all along

i never understood what they had done
that i became what i have now become

when i was a little bit older
the shadows had the power
to act, to speak, to walk for me
and tell me what’s inside my heart

i never understood what i had done
that i became what i have now become

when i was who i am now
i tell the shadows deep from my heart
you and i we are alike
no need to go for another strike

they then understood,
remembered who they really are

they are ready to transform themselves
the shadows start
to shine

fernweh

fernweh in meinen adern
brennt mir durch die seele
in die ferne der nacht
hinauf in die sterne
herab der schöpferquelle entgegen

fernweh in meinen adern
trägt mich zum nächsten land
nah und fern wo ich je war
die hügel verdecken
dennoch ein tiefes vertrauen
in mir wecken

fernweh in meinen adern
auf der unendlichen suche
nach dir, dem puls des lebens
der freiheit entgegen
da wo illusionen niemals entstehen

fernweh brennt mir durch die seele
fernweh brennt mir durch den leib
auf der suche
nach meiner unsterblichkeit

loslassen

der wind
der durch mich spricht
die wiese
mir freiheit schickt
die blumen
die ich nicht ergreife
weil sie wie holografien
mir entschweifen

was muss ich noch alles loslassen
damit ich endlich bei dir ankomme

was muss ich noch alles loslassen
damit ich endlich mein zu hause finde

sehe ich dich
so wie du bist
oder ist das alles
eine projektion
eines traumens
einer dichtung
die es in echt
gar nicht gibt

was muss ich noch alles loslassen
damit ich endlich bei dir ankomme

was muss ich noch alles loslassen
damit ich endlich mein zu hause finde

meine mutter, der baum
schickt mir eine sternschnuppe vor

mein vater, die sonne
hält mir meinen rücken
auch wenn ich tief abstürze

was muss ich noch alles loslassen
damit ich endlich bei dir ankomme

was muss ich noch alles loslassen
damit ich endlich mein zu hause finde

four roses

far the horizon
further the kiss
closed are her eyes
lying near his heart

far is the vision
no one sees the loss
gone is the distance
that kept them apart

far are the memories
from now till then
closed are her hands
that pray for you each night

far is the answer
only the dove knows where
gone are the tears
that drove the enemy into fear

find her four roses
so the truth may stay

find her a candle
so she won’t disappear

find her the love
that you would want

that you
would want

blue coat

i remember your
brown eyes
and the blue coat
they are calling
atlantis here

i remember the
love we shared
even now
6000 years later

i still feel your
chesed coming through
all that time and space

and sometimes
when i feel lonely
in this modern world

i think back of
you and i from when we were
back then

and then i feel so loved so fully so entirely
like no other man
has ever loved me ever since
during these last 6000 years

my love for you
will never fade

it just is
like you and me

i remember now
that if i meet you again
in this modern world
your eyes will be blue

das schwert eines ritters

spitze und lange
es glänzt und klingt
der klang schmerzt
in meinem ohr
das reiben
metall auf metall
erinnert mich an den
tag
als du versuchtest
mein herz herauszuschneiden
mit deinem schwert als ritter

doch ich war nicht blind
und mein vater hielt mir
meinen rücken

in einem mantel aus licht
trug er mich auf und davon
aus dem kronjuwel heraus
in die wahre freiheit hinein

nun ist es mein zu hause
das wort
das die wahrheit spricht

the land behind your eyes (duett)

– i can see a land behind your eyes
– i can see the agony in between yours
– i can see your freedom that cost you all that pain
– i can see the tears you’re hiding to escape your fears
– my soul has darkened, it turned black inside and out
– but i can still see the stars of life flowing through your veins
– so hold me close and kiss me tightly through the darkness of the nights
– i will hold you, oh how i love you dearly, i will hold you for as long as i can. but the place to which we go might take us forever apart.

when all is broken

when all is broken
into so many pieces
as if nothing entire
had ever been there before

when all is broken
into so many pieces
that my eyes
don’t see no more

when all is broken
into so many pieces
that my soul and my feet
already left the grounds

then the words
of forgiveness
are the only ones
left to say
and so i say

i am sorry
please forgive me
i love you
goodbye

goodbye

thank you

thank you for you smile

thank you for being who you are

you are you are

thank you for taking my hand
and making me jump over
my own fears

thank you for the sunshine i see
every time you look at me

thank you for seeing me for
who i am

i am i am

thank you for crossing that bridge
over and over again
to meet me in between

thank you for reminding me
of where i need to go
to find the pieces of my soul

from the past

from the present

from the future

just me, just me

– – –

have you ever seen your soul

fading away

drifting away

falling away into

a big black hole?

– – –

thank you for reminding me
of where i need to go

thank you
for your smile

close your eyes

close your eyes to see
the light is near
close your eyes to see
your light is near

find the peace inside
your heart, your mind

carry it on, share it along

never let go

just follow it strong

feuer brennt

feuer brennt
so lichterloh
ich liebe es
mich darin zu baden
zu spüren, wie der flammenchor
durch meine adern singt
in meinem atem brennt
meinen körper nimmt
weil es mich erinnert
an den tag
an dem ich die angst verlor
meine wahrheit zu sprechen
zu mir und meinem lebensweg zu stehen
auch wenn die flammen
das letzte waren
das ich damals sah

there are winners and there are losers

there are winners
and there are losers
i am loser
i accept it now
i can see it now

because i keep losing
my heart to empty holes
with no grounds nor roots

to empty souls
with no knowledge
of who they are

to empty hearts
with no wish
to love

there are winners
and there are losers
i am loser
i accept it now
i can see it now

because i lose myself
day in, day out
in this world
where machines are the ones
that make the stars
and the people amongst
who know how to act like them
win the battles for their homes

i lose myself in jealousy
over all these girls
that are loved by these
beautiful men
because they know
how to win their hearts

i lose myself in jealousy
over all these people
who know how to drink,
to party and to white collar work
without breaking apart
the way i do inside these crowds

dear god
what fragile creation
am i in this world

if all i feel
is pain and failure
again and again
as soon as i step outside

the only two things i own
is my honesty
and my wish
to remain free

i would not change
any of it
for anything
in this world

le troubadour

il venait du ciel pour un lullaby
il cachait ses secrets dans une muraille
il chantait les matins avec des butterlfys
il savait lire l’écriture de braille

c’est l’histoire du troubadour
personne ne le voyait
personne n’en croyait
il était toujours toute seul
portant ses propres pierres jusqu’à sa tombe

il avait des cauchemars de façon rouge
il était effrayé des fantômes qui bougent
il avait un coeur fragile et affectueux
et voyait la vie, quand même, avec des yeux fabuleux

c’est l’histoire du troubadour
personne ne le voyait
personne n’en croyait
il était toujours toute seul
portant ses propres pierres jusqu’à sa tombe

un jour les étoiles étaient dans sa faveur
ils entendaient ses prières silencieuses
et voulaient faire une acte de bienfaisance à un rêveur

ne plus être seul, que les gens le voyaient
était son plus grand rêve dans son coeur

mais le malheur l’a suivi
jour après jour
nuit après nuit

maintenant les gens le voyaient
mais il tremblait de peur
car il voyaient tous
comme il porta ses propres pierres
jusqu’à sa tombe

peu de temps était passé
et de nouveau il s’est échappé
dans son ciel, son monde unique
pour reprendre sa vie
dans l’immatériel

olympia

i will tell you my dream
it starts somewhere in between
the places that your eyes don’t see
your vision is too lost
the realm that you don’t dare to go
the darkness is too strong

olympia shine your light through me
through my breath, my brain, my veins
burn your sacred fire through the darkest parts
of my heart

i will tell you your future
but you might not believe
the grandness shining stars
that have been waiting for you long
the castles, treasures that were
for you to be past on

olympia shine your light through me
through my breath, my brain, my veins
burn your sacred fire through the darkest parts
of my heart

i will tell you a story
about a planet that was blue
with people lying deeper
as the ocean ever was
their greed outgrew the sky
in every direction

i will tell you my dream
with a trigger i will set myself free
and fly up the sky past all those lies
and rejoice my love
in honesty

olympia shine your light through me
through my breath, my brain, my veins
burn your sacred fire through the darkest parts
of my heart

the candle

i’ve been staring
at this candle

for hours
and days

sometime it dances
sometime, it is still

i’ve been staring
at this candle

for hours
and days

i’ve been watching the flame
in its fullest heat

i’ve been staring
at this candle

for hours
and days

i’ve been aching
me knees away

i’ve been staring
at this candle

for hours
and days

forgetting of who i am
or what i am

i’ve been staring
at this candle

for hours
and days

to finally have found

you

that very you that doesn’t exist
that very you that doesn’t live

because it was me

all along

and i don’t live
nor do i die

i only breathe
all day and night long

may peace be with you, dear ancestors

i feel trapped in my own blood
i feel trapped in my own skin

i feel trapped
i feel trapped

maybe tomorrow
i will call upon an angel

to let you go

auch wenn du gehst

auch wenn du gehst
wo auch immer du dann bist
bitte halt mich fest
lass mich nicht los

auch wenn du gehst
in ein neues land
oh wisse
ich liebte dich doch auch

leviathan

leviathan was walking down the field
picked some flowers
here and there
put them in his hair
and in his heart
to keep

he let them grow
every time he breathed

the sunshine kept him sane
made him bloom
made him see the truth

crossing the path with ahavniel
who was lost in old, old spell

here, take a flower
he said
breathe it in
it will leave your darkest illusions
without teeth nor a sin

no one can redeem
for what another one has done
yet only love can reach
where there is none

the sunshine made her sane again
made her bloom
next to him

i keep on walking

i keep on walking
to count the roses that are left
to find the fish i once ate
to forget about that constant pain

i keep on walking
to see the sun rise in gold
to cross the bridge before it falls
to fall in love, but not for you

i keep on walking
to plant green sparkling trees
to dance around with butterflies
to share what i found
because i love, my friend

can you hear

the wind whispers in my ears
the rain makes me wanna dance
the fire awakens the heat in my heart
the earth underneath my feet

reminds me

that we are just visitors to this world

i keep on walking
because i know he got my back

i keep on walking
because i know they will be there

i keep on walking
because i love, my friend